| i'm back! |
[24 Nov 2009|09:45pm] |
so, i don't know if anyone of my friends are using their livejournals any more, but DUDE i'm excited about having it again.
i am happy to be able to share freely here...and whether anyone's reading or not...well, who cares? i'll use this space to vent and share what's on my heart these days. :) ...and there's a lot. are you ready?
i discovered something about myself tonight, and it was terrifying and really cool at the same time.
i realized that i try very hard to control everything around me.
through a lot of tears and frustration, my husband and i came to this realization together...and the reason i do it is because i'm deathly afraid of being hurt.
i couldn't control whether my parents divorced or not...and because it was out of my hands, i equate the hurt that i felt (and still sometimes feel) with the feeling of being out of control.
i have a very hard time with letting go, with not being informed of what's going on, with unexpected or unforeseen circumstances, with NOT KNOWING WHICH ROUTE MY HUSBAND IS TAKING WHEN WE'RE GOING SOMEWHERE (????!!!!)...i mean, it shows up in the weirdest places. it is a matter of trust...and ultimately, with trusting God. do i really trust my Father? do i believe that He will always be there? yes, i know He'll be there, but i've seen through life experience that His presence in my life doesn't shield me from pain. but why am i so afraid of pain? pain brings us growth, maturity, wisdom...God uses pain to bring out the best in us. i'm going around in circles it seems, but these are just some thoughts that are swirling around in my mind. when it all comes down to it, there is some dealing that needs done in my heart...Lord, have Your way with me...please heal the places that are still broken, and bring Your presence into my life and my heart...please help me to trust You and to know that even though life is sometimes painful, You are ALWAYS faithful. You'll never allow me to hurt without purpose, whether i know the purpose or not. You are good, and You love me. let that be enough for me. i relinquish my struggle for control over my life, and i ask You, with all my heart, to let Your plan come to be in me. i love You...
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| well, kids, it's come to this: |
[17 Jun 2006|06:20pm] |
i don't think i'm really going to be updating this thing anymore. i've pretty much given up on it. i have a lot of friends who read my blogs on myspace, and it's just easier for me to do everything at one place, you know? i didn't think i'd ever quit using livejournal...and i probably won't...completely, anyway. but i've just realized that it's a lot of work and takes way too much time to update in more than one place. (yes, i know there's such a thing as copying and pasting...i'm not a fool!) just bear with me, folks. it's easy to get a myspace...and you can subscribe to my blog and you'll get an email when i update...so you don't have to check it all the time. sorry...i'm just way too lazy these days. :)
i think you all understand though!
don't forget about me, because i'll still be around!
LOVE!!
http://www.blog.myspace.com/addie_joy
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| just so you all know: |
[29 May 2006|02:31pm] |
i'm not going to have the internet after this afternoon...please see my myspace for details! :)
love you all and i'll keep you updated as much as i can! <3
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| um. |
[15 May 2006|04:20pm] |
okay, i just saw a commercial for a new item at kfc...it's a bowl, containing the following: mashed potatoes, sweet corn, chicken, gravy, and cheese.
sounds delectable, right? (yeah, it's making my tummy growl!)
my first thought following that...the fact that it would be downright embarrassing to order something so...so...evil.
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| EEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!! |
[11 May 2006|12:15am] |
okay.
i called it earlier today.
i was telling everyone at work to watch "my super sweet sixteen" tonight.
why?
because waltz for venus signed a licensing agreement with mtv back in...a few months ago...before i even knew what "my super sweet sixteen" was. yes, i just said mtv.
they knew there was a chance they'd be on the show, but i don't think any of us were prepared for it actually happening! i mean, who thinks they're going to hear their music on mtv, really? (no offense, wfv! you know i freaking love you, and i've never doubted how far you guys will go!)
but tonight...oh...tonight...
aaron and i were casually watching, and the show wasn't pissing me off like it normally does. the girl wasn't mean; she was actually a sweetheart! i was enjoying it, and, all of the sudden---i hear the familar chords of "just friends" coming FROM MY TV. holy poop!! i started "eeeee"ing like crazy, and freaking out...aaron was like, "shh!!!" because i was being so stinking loud. i even made him get up and hold hands with me and jump up and down with me in the living room. hehe. there wasn't any singing, but it was THEM. it was THEM!!! MY HUSBAND'S BAND'S SONG WAS ON A SHOW ON MTV!!!! freaking surreal.
I'M SO PROUD AND EXCITED FOR YOU BOYS! <3
i'm not sure when it's going to be on again, because mtv is listing the wrong show for that time spot tonight...not the right episode. :( but just so you know, it's a girl who's from michigan, and she's blonde, and an heiress. oh, and her name is alexis. watch that one, and just wait till you hear waltz for venus....*sigh*
so go leave them congratulatory comments and lots of love too. :)
k, g'night!
EEEE!!!!
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| awwww..... |
[04 May 2006|12:22am] |
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i love elijah wood...awwwww...i'm watching punk'd right now...he is so completely adorable...and so scared!!! he's terrified and he feels so bad! heheheheh...he threw a can in a dumpster, and there was a cigarette in it...and the dumpster exploded...he looks like he's going to cry. i just had to share that, because he's SO stinking SUCH a great guy. poor dear. awwwwww. if this episode is on again, you gotta watch it. seriously.
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| bad, bad week :( |
[22 Apr 2006|09:02am] |
i hate posting bad news on here...but this week has just totally sucked. more for aaron, but when his week sucks, my week sucks, too. my week sucks for his sucky week. follow? okay.
first of all...onnnn....monday, i think it was, aaron had problems with his already problematic tire/wheel and almost wrecked, and then had to get a new tire/wheel/something expensive. scary, because he could've wrecked badly. and we don't really just have extra money lying around, either. then, thursday night, he lost his wallet. i won't tell you the entire story, but let's just say it's gone for good. he was out late (very very late) driving around trying to retrace his steps and find it. then, yesterday, a man backed into aaron's car at the gas station. the damage isn't all that significant...but it's the principle of the matter. then, when i went to the grocery store yesterday afternoon, i forgot my cell phone, and locked my keys in my car. i ended up being at marsh for two hours on what was supposed to just be a quick run to the store. so poor aaron had to come and let me into my car after work.
the good things? we had these awesome taco-y things for dinner last night:
allison's taco-y things
ingredients:
1 lb lean ground beef
1/2-3/4 package of regular cream cheese
1 cup of sour cream
2 cups of shredded cheese, of the mexican variety
however many tortillas you want (...my husband doesn't prefer left-overs, so i only made four...didn't use all the meat or the cream cheesey stuff.)
either minced onion, or chopped green onion, to taste
1 packet of taco seasoning
preheat oven to 375.
brown the ground beef. drain, add water and taco mix. add minced onions (if you're using them) to meat. let simmer.
using an electric mixer, mix cream cheese and sour cream. add 1/2 of the cheese. (now is also the time to add green onions, if you are using them...they go better in this stuff than the meat.)
once meat is ready, spread the cream cheesey stuff onto tortilla, then add meat. roll up and place in casserole dish.
once all the tortillas are rolled up and in the dish, sprinkle with remainder of the cheese.
place in oven for 12 minutes.
enjoy!!! (only once in awhile, unless you use light cream cheese and sour cream!!! these are not healthy!!! hehe.)
okay...time to have some breakfast...i work today...go figure, it's gorgeous outside. :(
hope you all are having better weeks than we are!!!! love!!!!!
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[18 Apr 2006|09:34pm] |
"A study conducted by UCLA's Department of Psychiatry has revealed that the kind of face a woman finds attractive on a man can differ depending on where she is in her menstrual cycle. For example: If she is ovulating, she is attracted to men with rugged and masculine features.
However, if she is menstruating or menopausal, she tends to be more attracted to a man with scissors lodged in his temple and duct tape over his mouth while he is on fire. No further studies are expected."
and again i say, hehe. :)
LOVE!
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| this is for molly :) |
[17 Apr 2006|08:37pm] |
(hi, molly! hehe.)
i actually have something to post about today...it's pretty good, too. :)
so, saturday night, waltz for venus played at the knickerbocker...and we couldn't leave until the last band was finished playing (which was kind of okay, since they were pretty good...loose change...i liked 'em.), since the guys' gear was in a room behind the stage...annnyway...we got home after 3, and were completely exhausted...i could hardly keep my eyes open driving home. (i always drive home after shows cuz aaron's always sooo tired!) we were going to bed, and i decided to bring emma in to sleep with us...she is such a good little girl, and always wakes me up when she's got to get out to go potty or eat...she rubs her little whiskery face all over my face and makes her little grunty meow...and i always wake up and let her out. it's a great system we have going, in theory, at least. not that night, however. i woke up at about 7:30 because i heard emma puking, and as soon as i was coherent, the aroma of kitty poo filled my nostrils. uh-oh. i immediately got up and began searching the floor for the surprise...couldn't find it. i was like, "aaron, honey, i can't find it!" i was looking in the closet, as aaron was scooting across the bed to help me, when he said, suddenly, "well--i found it."
yes, my dear husband slid right through the poo.
it was all over his leg.
hehe. poor guy. really. can you imagine??
have to go...watchin' a movie! LOVE!
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| sorry for the lack of updatage. |
[14 Apr 2006|08:31pm] |
aaron has been taking the computer with him to work every day...so i haven't even really been able to check my email or anything lately! so that's why the updates have been scarce. that and the fact that i'm tired. i barely have enough energy to get my work clothes clean while i'm home, let alone do much else. the working out has slacked a little this week...i've only worked out twice. i blame daylight savings time. :) staying up later...sleeping to make up for it...no energy to work out when i get home from work...ugh...i just feel like i can't get enough sleep lately.
life is good...i am thankful that aaron and i are both employed and able to work...there are days when i hate my job (considering i've been in food for almost eight years now...yes, eight years!)...but for the most part, i am glad i have a place to work where i love just about all of my co-workers! aaron is working so hard, and he never ever complains. sure, he's tired, but he loves his job, and he works hard at it.
waltz for venus is playing tomorrow night at the knickerbocker in lafayette...and i'm singing with them on "dear hope,"!!!! aughhhhhhh!!!!! i am incredibly excited, and a little (or a lot) nervous too. what to do, what to do...during the instrumental break...hmmmm......come and cheer us on if you're up to it. i don't know about them, because they're pretty confident, but i could use the support. ;)
i don't really have much to say, because my life is kind of mundane right now...just working for the weekends, really. go to work, come home, go to bed, same thing the next day...look forward to having a day off...spend the days off cleaning and doing laundry...over and over again! such is life, right? :)
alright...i am, yes, tired, so i'm going to go...hope you all are well. i miss you, my friends. leave me lovey comments. :)
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| i guess i should update. |
[29 Mar 2006|09:55am] |
considering my last post was about geese hooking up, it's about time i update. :)
the only thing is...i don't have that much to say. life is still pretty much the same as it was a week or two ago...
i am still working out, though starting to get bored of it. the good thing is that the exercises are getting easier! once my legs get toned, i might try jogging. i have sucky endurance, though. i'll have to start small.
i got my brakes fixed on monday...guess how much it cost???? $111.00. isn't that incredible? and that was with an oil change too. thank God, because i was so scared it was going to be much more. i recommend car-x. yes.
this is why i don't like blogging when there's nothing interesting to talk about. hehe. i am a grownup, with grownup worries, and grownup responsibilities, and those don't make for exciting stories, most of the time. (unless you're aimee!) i apologize for this boring-ness!
i guess i'd better go work out...or actually do something. :)
LOVE!
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| gross. |
[24 Mar 2006|08:21am] |
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so, this morning, when i was somewhere between being asleep and awake, i definitely heard geese outside having sex. didn't quite realize what it was until i got up...but, ew. what a way to start the day...for the geese, at least. ;)
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| i'm still alive! |
[20 Mar 2006|12:59pm] |
sorry for the lack of updation. i just made up that word. :)
i am not sick anymore...good thing, it's been a week! i was back to work on wednesday. just a weird bug.
i've been working out somewhat consistently for two weeks now. i've been using my cindy crawford "shape your body" dvd, and you can laugh all you want, but it kicks your butt. there are two alternating 45 minute workouts...it's a lot of crunches, lunges, squats...you know, the really FUN stuff. it was great at first *sarcasm alert*...couldn't even sit down on the toilet without an "ow-ow-ow-ow-ow-ow-ow"...but it's better now. i am downright SHOCKED at how quick you see results with this routine...i am definitely firmer all over, quite noticeably, and i can feel all my muscles when i'm walking. and no, i'm not working out because i think i'm fat or anything like that...i just wanted to take better care of myself. i mean, i wasn't bathing suit-ready...and i wasn't satisfied with the health of my body. i wasn't getting any physical activity (outside of the usual daily stuff), and i just felt weak and tired all the time. i'm really excited about this...i am just trying to take it a day at a time...some days i get up early to do it, some days i do it when i get home from work...i feel so good. if you are looking for a workout to do at home that will give you SUPER results (quickly, to motivate you to continue!), this is one to try. just prepare to be sore for a few days at first! and one day...you do 300 crunches...different positions...ugh. it sucks. but it gets easier if you keep it up!
i wasn't going to mention this, because both of my parents read this, (i love you guys!) but it's part of my life, so i'm going to. today is six years that my parents have been divorced. so please keep them and my brother and i in your prayers/thoughts today. i'm sure it's not easy for either of them to get through this day, and it's certainly not fun for me. march is a bad month for aaron and i (and our families)...we appreciate all of our friends who are there for us. :) mom and dad, i love you. whether you're married or not, you're still my mom and dad, and nothing can change that. please know that i fully support and love you both for who you are, and i always always will. the past is forgiven and behind us...and we are still family.
on a completely different subject, waltz for venus had a show last night at birdy's with the brand-new lineup, and it was AMAZING. just a totally different sound. i felt like i was seeing them for the first time all over again: addition of piano on a few tracks, a fuller sound, more background vocals, higher energy, renewed ROCK-ness. (i'm just full of new words, aren't i?) i was in awe. if they're playing in your area, PLEASE go see them! the new songs are really good, and these guys deserve to GO SOMEWHERE. i'm sure you'll agree when you see them yourself. check out their myspace! i'm not just saying this because my husband is a part of the band...i would totally be a fan even if he wasn't. take stereo deluxe, for example. i LOVE them, and i'm not married to any of THEM...so, see? i promote bands i love. no bias here...just go see 'em. they're playing at the knickerbocker in lafayette on april 15th.
okay, i've got to go. lots to do on this day "off". :)
LOVE!!!!!!
(esp. to my dear erin, who is suffering through her first chemical peel...feeling for you, sweetie!!! i'm gonna call you later!)
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[13 Mar 2006|09:06pm] |
i'm sick.
it's been steadily getting worse all day. i woke up feeling like crap, and then it just got worse. i already called in for tomorrow.
emma's been comforting me, and i've been sleeping on the couch pretty much all day.
anyway, just wanted to let you know...if anyone even reads this. :S
LOVE.
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| what i've been up to... |
[12 Mar 2006|11:51am] |
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on friday, my boss told me that he wanted me to make him a sign. as you know, i work at chick-fil-a, and we're very involved (my store, at least) in the community. we sell food at tons of events, and do tons of catering orders each day. the cows are a huge hit, and we've got a cow suit that someone wears at these events, or they stand out on the median and dance and wave and tell people to "eat mor chikin". most people just love it. the cows make their own signs, because they are trying to save their own hides. that's why they're so adamant about people eating chicken, in case you didn't know. :) anyway, they spell stuff wrong, and are quite messy about their signs. hehe.
now, jeff said that we were going to have the cow standing outside of a high school sectional thing that we were selling sandwiches at...he just wanted a sign for the cow to hold, to let people know that there was chick-fil-a being sold inside. he sent me over to office max to get some supplies, and while i was there, i thought it over. he had suggested something simple, like "hot chicken inside", just to get people's attention and get the message across. something about that just sounded weird to me, so i made sure i understood the event, and came up with the phrase "score some chicken inside", only the cows would spell it "skore sum chikin inside"...i got to work, and finished the sign before i left work that day! :)
one of my friends took a picture of it and emailed it to me last night, so i wanted to share it with you! i'm really excited about the chance to use my talents at work...my boss is going to have me make about five or six more signs for him...they're going to schedule time for me to do it at work. i feel so fulfilled and happy that i had the opportunity to do this. i'm beyond thankful! :)
so, anyway, here's the picture!
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| ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. |
[09 Mar 2006|09:37pm] |
i'm sitting. that's right, folks, my buns are on the loveseat. i just finished eating a fudgesicle, and "the office" is on. i don't think i could be any happier right now. let's see.......nope. i don't think i could. :)
bonus: my boss gave me two movie passes today, just for typing up a new closing list and a stock list. i just thought that we needed it, badly. i really needed the encouragement today, so i almost cried when he did that. sometimes you just need to be affirmed by your boss. and affirmation by way of free movie passes is okay by me. a raise would be nice too...
things are good. *sigh* i'm behind on laundry, and on bills, but it's just because i need to deposit some money. we're fine. i think i just need to get a new bank account. i'm a member at pefcu, which is based in lafayette...and i can only bank at certain banks here with that account. my maiden name is still on my account, so i can't cash my chick-fil-a checks...they have my married name on them. i have to go to lafayette to change my name on the account. when i tried to do it last time, i didn't have my marriage certificate with me, so i couldn't. it's a little stinky. i want to keep that account, but it'd be nice to have a different one with which to cash checks. :)
ahahahahahaha, dwight is so funny. this show is one of the best ever created (or redone, i guess you could say). :)
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[07 Mar 2006|11:26pm] |
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sometimes...when i need a good laugh...i go to cingular's website...& listen to polyphonic ring tones...and crack up...all by myself. :)
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| a favorite recipe i'd like to share: |
[06 Mar 2006|12:30pm] |
i'm about to go all martha stewart on y'all...here goes!
beef stew-
ingredients:
1 2lb boneless chuck eye roast (i used angus beef and it was delicious! if you are short on time, you might want to try getting some meat that's already trimmed and cut into pieces...it takes awhile to trim all the fat away and stuff, especially if you're picky like me.)
3/4 cup of italian dressing (i used kraft's light done right zesty italian)
3 cups sliced carrots
3 medium potatoes, peeled and cut into large chunks (i used small new potatoes, and just cut them either in half or into thirds...i can't remember how many i used...probably about 3 or 4 cups)
1 can (14 1/2 oz) beef broth
optional ingredients:
6 slices of bacon, chopped
1 large onion, chopped
3 cups sliced mushrooms
1 can (14 1/2 oz) stewed tomatoes, undrained
i didn't use those things because i just wanted it to be as basic as possible...just the meat, potatoes and carrots. now, if you're not using the stewed tomatoes, you might want to use 2 cans of beef broth, depending on how much broth you like. i only used one, and there wasn't a WHOLE lot of broth, but it was wonderful that way! also, i added a little bit of milk to the broth to make it a little creamier...probably about 1/3 cup or so. (i rarely measure...hehe)
so, onto the instructions:
1. first you trim the excess fat from the meat and cut into even 1-inch chunks.
2. place beef into large zip-lock bag...pour italian dressing in, make sure the meat is all covered, and then refrigerate 30 minutes to marinate. doesn't matter if you don't like italian dressing...because you won't be able to taste it...it just adds some flavor and tenderizes the meat.
3. if you are adding bacon, here's where that comes in: cook the bacon in a large pot on medium heat 5 minutes or until crisp. remove bacon from the pot, then drain the excess bacon fat...refrigerate until fat is solidified and then throw it away. (i didn't add bacon, like i said...i just used some bacon bits made by tastefully simple...it was good.)
4. if using mushrooms and onions, cook them in the pot first, until they are softened. then add the rest of the ingredients, including the beef, and the beef broth.
6. bring to a boil, stirring occasionally. then reduce the heat and simmer for about 1 hour 15 minutes...this is when i added the other stuff...i put in lots and lots of pepper (because i LOVE it), some garlic powder, seasoned salt, regular salt, and some minced onions...all to taste. i also added the milk at this time. you can either leave it covered until you're ready to serve it, or uncover and simmer about 15 minutes until sauce is thickened and everything is tender and juicy. :)
this makes 8 servings...supposedly...actually...i had a small serving and aaron had a large one...and then there was enough left for another large and small serving. so...i would say about six small servings, depending on how much broth and meat you use! :)
serve with warm buttered cornbread...i guarantee you'll feel all cozy and stuff. :)
my husband approved, and that's all the guarantee i can give you...hehe.
aaaaand, i can't take all the credit: i got this recipe from kraft food & family magazine...and just adapted it a little to make it my own. :)
oh, and by the way, we're not moving to ohio. :)
LOVE!
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| two great stars are gone... |
[26 Feb 2006|10:39pm] |
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well, don knotts died on friday...and darren mcgavin died yesterday.
i'm assuming everyone knows who don knotts is...but darren mcgavin was the dad on "a christmas story", which is one of my favorite movies. the weird thing is, they co-starred in two movies together, and they died within a day of each other. that's so strange. don was 81, and darren was 83.
just makes you think...two people that have had quite an influence on my childhood are gone.
i'm not really sad about it or anything...they lived full lives and accomplished a lot!
it's just a wistful thing, and i thought it deserved a mention. :)
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[26 Feb 2006|05:28pm] |
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i don't have any news yet...we are still kind of up in the air as far as whether we're moving yet...but we'll have an answer this week, hopefully! i will certainly let everyone know.
this has been quite a week...ups and downs, for sure. i am hanging in there. whenever it's hard, i just listen to this song:
"more faithful" (by skillet, duh)
all the things my feet thought to be firm
are falling with urgency
tearing back my false sense of security
some say things change, nothing stays the same
but the sweetness in my ears
safe in Your arms speak the words I love to hear
You have been more faithful than the morning sun
You have been more faithful than knowing the night will come
You have been more faithful than the changing of seasons
all things I thought that I used to know
are falling down again
our disillusionment is how we grow
some say things change, nothing stays the same
in a world of inconsistency
when everything's a lie,
what can cause my heart to believe
You have been more faithful than the morning sun
You have been more faithful than knowing the night will come
You have been more faithful than the changing of seasons
and considering the fact that the author, mr. john cooper (love him), wrote this about the death of his mother...well, it puts my situation in perspective, to say the least. i am so thankful for skillet's music because it always makes me feel so comforted. it's amazing. i listened to it a lot when i moved to texas...whenever i felt scared or alone, it was there to get me through. thanks, josh, for making that worship cd for me!!! i wish i still had it. :S my cds got stolen out of my car when i lived there. go figure. :)
but yeah, everything's fine with us...i have been looking at some apartments in toledo, and there are 3 different ones, 1 in particular, that would be nice. it seems pretty similar to where we are now. their pet policy is a bit ridiculous ($35/month PER CAT), but it's soooooo pretty!
at least i'm feeling positive. aaron would be proud. :)
i'm gonna go...sorry i haven't updated much...i haven't really had the time. i'm gonna go and watch "rent" now. have to watch it while aaron's gone! he doesn't want to watch it. OH-we watched "proof" last night, and it was SO good. (anthony hopkins, gwyneth paltrow, jake gyllenhal or however you spell it...) i highly recommend this one.
mkay, goodbye for now. LOVE!
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